JAN
as long as I take time out for myself when needed (introverting) I can spend a whole weekend with a large group of people that I don't know among an even larger group of extra strange strangers. no anxiety.
as long as I take time out for myself when needed (introverting) I can spend a whole weekend with a large group of people that I don't know among an even larger group of extra strange strangers. no anxiety.
FEB
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MAR
It turns out I still have emotional trauma and it's easily triggered by similar situations, but at least this time I figured it out right away, acknowledged and accepted it, and was able to process it faster than usual.
It turns out I still have emotional trauma and it's easily triggered by similar situations, but at least this time I figured it out right away, acknowledged and accepted it, and was able to process it faster than usual.
APR
I know I've learned this 100 times already, but I guess I need to keep learning it before it'll stick: I feel better about myself if I stick to consistent habits in terms of eating/exercise. I know what those habits need to be and where I can push myself or deny myself... yet I keep ignoring all that in favor of comforts and pleasures and stuff like that. Still growing, still learning.
I know I've learned this 100 times already, but I guess I need to keep learning it before it'll stick: I feel better about myself if I stick to consistent habits in terms of eating/exercise. I know what those habits need to be and where I can push myself or deny myself... yet I keep ignoring all that in favor of comforts and pleasures and stuff like that. Still growing, still learning.
MAY
My hair is heavy when it's long and I don't get it cut regularly which can be extremely uncomfortable in the summer. I was supposed to go back to get a cut in May but of course everything was canceled. I didn't want to wait so I cut it myself. I think this was the first time I have cut my own hair since high school, or maybe my early 20s, I can't remember. I'm not that bad at it although I do need to learn to STOP earlier than I think I should.
My hair is heavy when it's long and I don't get it cut regularly which can be extremely uncomfortable in the summer. I was supposed to go back to get a cut in May but of course everything was canceled. I didn't want to wait so I cut it myself. I think this was the first time I have cut my own hair since high school, or maybe my early 20s, I can't remember. I'm not that bad at it although I do need to learn to STOP earlier than I think I should.
JUN
Sometimes I drink too much and I want to be aware of that.
Sometimes I drink too much and I want to be aware of that.
JUL
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AUG
Vacation was a timeless void where I had a list of things I wanted to get done but didn't feel guilty about not doing. Despite having the freedom to do "whatever I wanted" I spent all of my time knocking things off my to do list between time spent on Animal Crossing, watching a movie or show, making art, cleaning, etc. I got so much done! I'm still trying to understand how I accomplished that but it was wonderful.
Vacation was a timeless void where I had a list of things I wanted to get done but didn't feel guilty about not doing. Despite having the freedom to do "whatever I wanted" I spent all of my time knocking things off my to do list between time spent on Animal Crossing, watching a movie or show, making art, cleaning, etc. I got so much done! I'm still trying to understand how I accomplished that but it was wonderful.
OCT
Some things are worth doing even though I will have covid anxiety for the two weeks after, but most things are not worth it. It is always worth it to see someone for a walk outside.
Some things are worth doing even though I will have covid anxiety for the two weeks after, but most things are not worth it. It is always worth it to see someone for a walk outside.
NOV
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DEC
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