Last week was extremely stressful so today I am posting a draft! You can see the difference between my draft and polished/edited thoughts, how exciting.
do any of the web oldies remember this? I was obsessed. biggest fan of this site.
I watched the movie Now and Then (1995). Dang, imagine being that comfortable to be vulnerable and yourself around not just one other person but three? I can do it now but I could never at that age.
Friday the 13th in December. this December was pretty cool because it was the first time I celebrated krampus and also we had a December the 13th. it's going to be cool for other reasons but I'll get into that some other time. it's really not cool for a lot of other reasons but, you know, find your joys where you can. I watched two horror movies on Friday, they were not the best but they had the spirit of Christmas in them and that was pretty nice.
I'm going to try out personal knowledge management. I've had Google docs, Evernote, notion, and have tried multiple other systems but none of them were flexible enough or otherwise annoying to use for whatever reason. so for a while I have just been putting my stuff everywhere, wherever it happens to end up. I have notebooks and files saved all over my desktop, stray loose leaf papers with important deadlines, and a bunch of stuff that is lost in the recesses of my brain because I never wrote it down knowing I would lose it anyway. though I'm not a knowledge manager in my job, I am a certified acknowledge manager, I took a really expensive class that gave me all kinds of tips and context for knowledge management strategy within an organization, and even though I'm not an organization, I want to use what I learned in that class. so now I have two issues or as you might call them, motivations to start a system for myself. I downloaded a few tools that were recommended by PKM experts and played with them, but ended up sticking to obsidian, mostly because I like the interface better, partially because it was the easiest to use, and jokingly because it lets me pick my own fonts. (underrated feature)
shrinking TV show. about seven or eight episodes in there was a moment 5 minutes before the episode ended where one of the characters came in with meat and was just like, do you guys want a barbecue? and since everybody is in and out of each other's houses despite the fact that all of these people have professional relationships, everybody was just there. I love the neighbors. I love everything Harrison Ford is and does. anyway there's this moment where Jason segel is standing in his backyard noticing all of the love around him, everyone playing their part and being themselves and staying vulnerable and flocking together, and he smiles. I've had those moments, especially very recently after diagnosis and finding myself and understanding my context and my gender and getting my new name. I've had so many of those moments where I just look around me and see all of my people laughing or eating, but just living together and being together and I think, wow. it has all come together very well despite everything. so anyway, that moment in the TV show gave me major chills and it was pretty cool. I feel like this “moment of realization” happens a lot in TV to show the growth of a character, but it has never given me chills like that before.
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